Everyone and everything in life is different in some way. Take a look at your thumb... That is the only thumb print like that on the face of the earth, therefore you are "Thumbbody!" I was in high school the first time I really learned about DNA and how it works; that DNA can be traced back to the originator of the particular strand. It took me until I was 28yrs old to fully buy into the idea that "You are you and you're not here to be someone else." I am the baby of 5 so my story is completely different than most. I always had someone to look up to. The problem was, we were all different and unique in our own way. So I started thinking, if I was like my big brothers I wouldn't get beat up.... WRONG!!! I think it just irked them and cost me more beatings. Then by the time it was obvious I had my own personality it was a complex hybrid mix to include a big sister who made me play with Barbie and Ken dolls, games like Pretty Pretty Princess and Mall Madness. So as you can see when I say complex hybrid mix, I'm not kidding.
As I came into young adulthood I realized the more you pleased people the better off you would be. That even if you disagreed with someone influential the best way to keep them in your circle was to simply agree with them, no matter what the outcome was. If I lost a friend, so be it because my friend wasn't as important as the influential person I just agreed with. However, it wasn't as cut and dry as I make it sound. Because of my complex hybrid mixed personality I always tried to persuade the friends I lost to give my idea and chance. Now this being young adulthood, it usually ended up with us being drunk, not remembering why we were even mad. Talk about a great problem solving exercise. This went on for years and I still may use this technique to my advantage on special occasions.
Being a people pleaser is a double edge sword and can cause a lot of headaches. On one side I want people to like me and be happy to have me around. Then the other side I don't like letting people down and If I do something others don't like by making someone else happy, I lose. I've always thought as I got older it would get easier. My circle would weed itself out and I'd have a core group of people I could call on whenever I needed them. I couldn't have been any more wrong! At the ripe ol' age of 25 I was introduced to a group of guys that would encourage me to be me. A group of grown men that would encourage me to set aside my inner thoughts of "I wonder what they think" and pick up the thought of "It's not about you." A group of grown men that would lead me on what is now a five year adventure to find out who I am...
I know that being part of something is key for me. Always willing to get in the mix, get dirty, and help. It's safe to say I am a doer and not a watcher. Doing this has opened me up to a world of support that strand from Georgia to California. I know that no matter what state I travel to I can always reach out and have someone remotely close to me. This is the cool part of being on this adventure. However I am here to talk about the not so hot part. To every good moment you have in your life you will always have 2 negative moments that will attempt to ruin the good. It's at this moment you have to be willing to see past the negativity and define who you are. Again, it took me roughly 28yrs to figure this out and I still to this day struggle with it because I have never taken change or negative statements easily... It's part of that complex hybrid personality.
However I have learned to over come these negative aspects by simply remembering how much I lost trying to keep everyone happy. How many times I agreed with things I was completely against just because I wanted to be liked. How many friends no longer speak to me because of it, though we had fun at the bar trying to figure it all out. It took a long time to figure out the world truly is a cruel place full of cruel people and when you find small pockets of happiness you take advantage of them immediately and make them into your moments. Please don't get me wrong. I am not going around kicking down doors and telling people I disagree with them. I'm not bullying my thoughts and beliefs on people. I am simply walking away. I am removing all doubt from the situation that I am remotely interested in the subject. However, I will always be interested in the people. I have manage to create and start to live in an agree to disagree world, but that is for another time.
Don't let people and their opinions define you. Let your actions and your actions alone define you. Better yet, let your reaction to negative actions define you. Whenever you get to a point where you can't walk away remember everyone is different, just look at your thumb. Who knows what that will end up doing for your life. I know it opened up a whole new world for me where I'm not afraid to blog, where I have a podcast, and I have a live comedy show on YouTube where I don't worry about people's opinions because five years ago I met a group of people who showed me that I am "Thumbbody." Who knows, maybe one day people will share this and it will change the world or I get to do this professionally. For now though, I am content knowing the people who will read this are apart of my world and rather than supporting me, they are joining me on this journey through life!!
"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself." George Bernard Shaw
-Biscuit













